Healing

 Tuesday 1st September (only just 12.10am):

...That's the thing with healing, it's often done in silence and privacy. Our internal worlds are often in turmoil but you only ever let shine through the parts that we feel are complete and presentable.

True trust and vulnerability come from the willingness to share with others when you are still processing, when you are still learning lessons and not looking back in hindsight yet.

This is an attitude I admire most in others, one might simply call it openness and honesty, but that ability to show me a part of yourself as it is currently, even if you still feel it isn't yet complete, is the most admirable behaviour. It shows me your vulnerability, your honesty, your commitment, your passion, your morals... I only ever hope that I too get to share like for like.... as often I find myself holding back with those deep vulnerability moments, through fear of that being taken advantage of or disregarded (again). 

So if I ever start to go philosophical on you, let me, it means I'm willing to expose a little piece of my vulnerability to you and that's a very important practice I need to work on. And frankly if I'm willing to share that with you it means I trust you a lot so you should probably treasure that too. Despite my openness to talk about myself on the internet, there is still a lot about my emotional self I don't reveal until it becomes hindsight, so if I start to reveal 'possible' and 'maybe' and 'somedays' and 'one days' with you, then just know I'm willing to show my vulnerability to you and that in itself should be treasured.