Monday blues...
06/02/2012
It's been ages since I was last on here or since I last posted anything... And it's sad that now that I am posting, it's about how sad I'm actually feeling.
It's Monday, the weekend was crap in many ways, there's horrible snow everywhere turning to ice, making my toes and knee hurt more. I'm cold tired and just plain pissed off. I'm praying for the day we move into our next accommodation in September. I've had a house mate bitch about me behind my back, without considering other external factors - when, if they knew the truth, they would have thought twice about what they said; it's like living with a bunch of 13 year old girls! I'm dreading the whole of the week, just expecting to hear bad news, just waiting for my phone to go off. And then to top it all off, I have two course mates telling me what to do like I'm sort of idiot, like they're my Mum! I'm not stupid and I know what I need to do and can fix things myself, without having them patronise me in the process! And all this when they're the one's that have been messing me about promising me one thing then taking that away, leaving me stranded with little time to fix things! ARGH!!!!
This damn weather is just making me more sombre and melancholy than I truly am. But I can't disguise it anymore... And I can't distinguish what's true upset and what being amplified by my stupid overreacting heart and weather affected head.
I just want to be crawled up in bed with some sunshine warming my face and the birds singing outside my window... I just want to be at home.
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device
It's been ages since I was last on here or since I last posted anything... And it's sad that now that I am posting, it's about how sad I'm actually feeling.
It's Monday, the weekend was crap in many ways, there's horrible snow everywhere turning to ice, making my toes and knee hurt more. I'm cold tired and just plain pissed off. I'm praying for the day we move into our next accommodation in September. I've had a house mate bitch about me behind my back, without considering other external factors - when, if they knew the truth, they would have thought twice about what they said; it's like living with a bunch of 13 year old girls! I'm dreading the whole of the week, just expecting to hear bad news, just waiting for my phone to go off. And then to top it all off, I have two course mates telling me what to do like I'm sort of idiot, like they're my Mum! I'm not stupid and I know what I need to do and can fix things myself, without having them patronise me in the process! And all this when they're the one's that have been messing me about promising me one thing then taking that away, leaving me stranded with little time to fix things! ARGH!!!!
This damn weather is just making me more sombre and melancholy than I truly am. But I can't disguise it anymore... And I can't distinguish what's true upset and what being amplified by my stupid overreacting heart and weather affected head.
I just want to be crawled up in bed with some sunshine warming my face and the birds singing outside my window... I just want to be at home.
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device
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